The Times We Lost.

The days we lost, the minutes we left behind. The seconds we grieve for, the years we yearn for.

The days we lost fighting, the days we lost screaming, the days we lost crying. Those were the days, the days we were furious, the days we were illogical, the days we lost.

The minutes we lost trying, the minutes we lost sitting behind, the minutes we lost losing hope. Those were the minutes, the minutes we weren't doing anything, the minutes we didn't see, the minutes we left behind.

The seconds we grieve for, the seconds we miss, the seconds we remember. Those were the seconds, the seconds we need, the seconds we live for, the seconds we love, the seconds we grieve for.

The years we yearn for, the years we expect, the years we foresee, the years we want. Those were the years, the years we wish for, the years we long for, the year we reach for, the years we yearn for.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm fucking crazy

One day baby we'll be old, oh baby we'll be old, and think of all the stories we could have told.

Hypocrites.

Self explanatory. If you do something that hurts someone and then go off on them for retaliating, then you are a hypocrite. Life is already unfair, but making the playing field uneven is itself blasphemes. Using your power over someone else to dangle them is horrible, and making someone suffer under your mental glaring is cruel.

It goes on..

Sometimes, when life fucks you over, you can't help but wonder "where did I fuck up". You go over everything you've done, analyzing and reanalyzing everything till you mentally exhaust yourself. You think to yourself and wonder what you could have possibly done to deserve this, any of this. You pour yourself a drink and light one up and while you wallow in your misery, life has already moved on to fuck over the next poor soul. While you're wallowing over the damage you've been inflicted, the cause of the damage itself is long gone. Someone hurt you, a lot. While  you roll around in your own self pity and pain, they're out doing their thing living their life and not thinking twice about any of it. Something bad happened to you, courtesy of life and all its unfairness, and while you are thinking about how sad you are how hurt you are, life has already moved on and is a million miles away. Life is unfair. It sucks. Friends leave. Family disappoints you. People die. But when all is said and done, you'll be digging your own pitiful grave while everyone else? Well, they're living their life and moving on. So maybe it's not that easy to just up and move on, and maybe it's not that simple and it maybe even the hardest fucking thing you'll ever have to put yourself through, but the thing is, life doesn't wait for anybody. So you either man up, dry your tears, put on your happy face and start moving on, or you'll just spend your entire life feeling sorry for being such a miserable fuck up.

dammit I do..

My obsession at the moment..

Florrie - She Always Gets What She Wants